Earth Gypsy Studio

Winter Photos

There is some really beautiful scenery around my house. That is just one of the many reasons I love living where I do. Here are a few more pictures I took while on my walk.

Me all bundled up and enjoying the view.

Another view across the pond.

Laying in the field soaking up the sunshine.

Roots, stones, burrows and twigs on the forest floor.

Mmmm...Sun!

I am so thankful today to be able to bask in the warm rays of the sun. I went for a walk in the fields around my house today. The air was much warmer and I was not cold at all. I visited one of the ponds and observed the way it mirrored the beautiful sky. I laid down on the straw and soaked up the warmth of the sun. It would have been so easy to drift off and lose myself in slumber. But I had no time for that today.However I did have time to take some photos.

I'm Positive

Yay! I am so positive about soooo many things. This has not been the case in a very very long time. But man does it feel great! I am positive I have the love of the most wonderful man in the whole wide world. I am positive that my life can be filled with happiness after all. I am positive that I have what it takes to be a good mother. I am positive that I am going to do my absolute best in my Landscape Design class. I am positive that I'll find my lost creativity and start using my artistic talents once again. 

I have a lot of wonderful people in my life, all of whom believe in me and want to see me be happy and successful. They have supported me in everything I do and in everything I have gone through. I owe them all a lot. But for a long time I guess I did not believe in myself. I was full of doubts, full of worry. It's taken me a while to work through all that. But I am getting there.

My 2010 started off terrible, cold and lonely. But the best surprise of my life was waiting for me just around the corner. Now I feel so full of hope. I feel so loved for the first time in a long time. And I look forward to my future for the first time in a long time. And for that I owe my thanks to Jason.

Wow!!

The moon is just above the horizon line beyond the trees and it is HUGE! It's yellowish golden. So beautiful! I wonder if I will hear the coyotes singing tonight. I love hearing their lonesome sounds.

Needing Motivation and Inspiration

I know my lack of creative thoughts has been linked with my depression. Now would be a great time to allow my emotions to escape me by focusing on new works. Where to start? Should I create things or draw things that show my sorrow? Should I create things that show my inner fire, or my inner anger? There are a lot of directions I could go with this. At least I have been able to write about my inner struggles and release some of the emotions in that way. Keeping these thoughts pent up inside will only prolong the torment of depression. Maybe I have been missing out on some great creative fuel.

Reflection

The vast landscape of my heart has felt as dry and parched as a dessert. But within it beauty lies hidden, waiting to be revealed and nurtured.

Perhaps people fear becoming lost in such a place. Distracted by the mesmerizing view while they slowly die of thirst. 

I will not live in fear. It is not the ruler over my fate. My destiny is my own. I will not run away from it.

Winter Prelude

After the serious drought we have faced here in Georgia, the weather here has done a total 180. We've had so much rain the last many months. It's as if the gods decided to answer everyone's prayers all at once. Now the ground is saturated, it sounds like walking on a wet sponge. What a change from the hard baked earth of last year.

We've also already have some pretty darn cold weather for the South. If it continues to be wet and cold, we may have some nice snow. I like snow. I think if it's going to be bitterly cold, then it could at least snow. What we have most often here is hard frost. So I am going to pray we have a snowy winter and here is a picture I took the last time it snowed at my house.

The contrast of the last fall leaves against the cold gray sky is beautiful. I love fall and i even love winter if I have warm clothes and a nice fire. Having someone to cuddle up to doesn't hurt either.

I have a really happy tomato plant living in my dining room window. It has good many tomatoes on it. I am not sure they will ever get to maturity. We'll see how this experiment goes.

Personal Transformation

This post isn't really about my art but it concerns creative thoughts so I wanted to share it. I have been through a troublesome time in my personal life for about the last four years. I have changed a lot, learned a lot and grown a lot during that time. But I have also become a shadow of the person I once was. Sometimes when you are in a situation it is hard to see things objectively. My life has been effected by one long series of choices that I have made of my own free will. There is no one to blame for it not being the life I wanted. It's up to me to create the life I desire. We all have our own path to follow and I have been wandering around lost in the woods for a number of years metaphorically speaking. So it is my intent to try to live every day as joyfully as possible.

Personal transformation never really stops. It may slow and mellow with time once you find the right path for you. Mine has begun anew, full of fire and determination. I have rekindled that zest for life that has been missing for a long long time. I am ready to return to the land of the living. I deserve to be there. I'm ready to enjoy life again.